many times each day

Praying regularly is the best way to perfect and improve one’s spiritual life.
We learn to pray properly by praying less than properly.

The timing and frequency of our prayers will vary from person to person.
There is no ‘perfect rhythm’ of prayer.

Popular Christian piety suggests a daily prayer, also called a ‘quiet time’.
Some Christian traditions practice twice-daily prayers: ‘matins’ and ‘vespers’ (or morning and evening prayer); and many Buddhists do morning and evening chants.
Islam requires adherents to pray five times a day.
Cistercian monks pray seven times a day; outdone by Benedictine monks with eight prayer hours.

Praying once, twice, five, seven or eight times a day is great…

But I just don’t think that is enough, at least for me…
(A good Christian, Buddhist, Muslim or Monk will agree.)

I have to keep praying ‘unceasing’ prayers, processing life with God as it happens.

Recovering alcoholics who are working a programme from the guidance of the AA Big Book will heed the following advice for spiritually navigating a day:

“As we go through the day we pause, when agitated or doubtful, and ask for the right thought or action. We constantly remind ourselves we are no longer running the show, humbling saying to ourselves [in truth, it is a prayer that is said to God!] many times each day ‘Thy will be done.’ ” (AA Big Book, 87-88)

This practice, conceived by people famous for their struggles, best echoes the admonition of St Paul, who wrote that the will of God for us is to “Rejoice always, pray without ceasing, give thanks in all circumstances” (1 Thessalonians 5:16).

Because of the simultaneous fragility and dominance of my ego, I have to pray.
All the time.

Esther, Exodus & Escalation

I just finished reading Esther this morning. It’s quite astonishing to read it in 2024 – with what’s going on in Israel & Gaza. There are some fascinating similarities (and important differences) between 480 BC and 2024; between ancient Persia and modern Palestine, which I wanted to reflect on here.

The Reality of Oppression

Jewish identity is shaped by many things, but among them we must include the tragic reality of being oppressed.

This is a historic trajectory that goes all the way back to Egypt. Israel under the lash of oppressive rule by Pharaoh. Making bricks without straw. The book of Exodus narrates the astounding victory that Israel experienced under God’s redemptive hand. It’s an ultimate reversal of power. The ultimate under-dog story. The little guy beating the big guy. Little Israel plundered the Big Egyptians. Their Big fancy chariot wheels got stuck before they all got drowned in the sea, and we Little guys made it through just fine with dry feet.

The book of Esther narrates the Jews under a kind of new Egypt, this time it is Persia. And this time, it is not the king that plays the leading oppressor role, but a high-ranking official named Haman. The basic story arc here is similar to Exodus, but instead of escaping with plunder, the reversal here is that the ones who were about to be entirely destroyed got to do some defensive destroying of their own.

Fast forward to 1933-1945 and the sense of victimhood has another horrific and historic chapter supporting it. This time Egypt is the Third Reich and Pharaoh is Hitler. I’ve been to Auschwitz. I’ve read Night by Elie Weisel. Utterly inhumane and horrific. Jewish folk carted in, dehumanised, starved, humiliated and systematically disposed of.

So then, in the mind of the Jewish people, the lineage of oppression and victimhood is clear and historic.
Egypt. Persia. Third Reich.
Pharaoh. Haman. Hitler.

Victims in the Present Moment

The time-span from Hitler and the WWII era to the current situation is only mere decades, but for us it feels like ages. The UN Partition Plan (1947) placed Israel officially back in the land. Without wanting (or pretending to be able) to get into a balanced summary of events, shall we say it’s not been a peaceful situation. There’s not much I want to say about the current horrors taking place. But I will risk making an observation that I think is crucially important.

Putting aside the question of what is correct or right, and focusing on the question of what motivates action… both the IDF (Israeli Defense Force) and Hamas (note: I’ve deliberately not used the terms ‘Israel’ or the ‘Palestinians’) are operating from a victim mindset… and both feel their actions are justified because of it.

Whatever you think about Just War theory, pacifism, or self-defense, we can probably acknowledge the difference between senseless, random, brutality (“let’s kill people for fun”) and the kind of violence and counter-violence at play here (“they have it coming to them”). Agree or not with the actions of either, it is useful to try to understand them.

Let’s go back now and look a little closer at Exodus, Esther, WWII and then the present…

Justifying Violence?

Lets start in Exodus. Egypt justified violence and ‘shrewd’ treatment against the Israelites, arguing that “the Israelites have become much too numerous” (Exodus 1:8-10). They feared them growing even more numerous, fighting against them, and leaving. In light of this oppressive enslavement, we see Moses justifying killing the Egyptian who was beating a Hebrew (2:11-13). In the book of Exodus, there is a strong theme of God fighting for Israel (14:14; 14:25). They don’t have to wield swords, the Lord brings plagues and parts the sea. The Israelites are more numerous, but weaker in terms of political power, might and money. And through divine rescue, they conquer. The little guys (large in number) beat the big bad guys.

Next, let’s look at Esther. Here we have Haman, the Agagite, who is not only incensed that Mordecai will not bow to recognise the high standing he’d been given, but escalated matters to planning and scheming to have all Jews destroyed throughout the whole kingdom. We don’t know if the logic he lays out to Xerxes (Ahasuerus) is genuinely part of his background hatred of Jews, but his argument was that the Jews have different laws, keep separate, and don’t obey the king’s laws. Their impropriety made them, by his logic, worthy of extinction. By the time Haman had written letters in the king’s name, they contained “the order to destroy, kill and annihilate all the Jews – young and old, women and little children… and to plunder their goods.” (3:13) The order identified a single day for the slaughter, and went out to every province.

The immediate response was “great mourning among the Jews, with fasting, weeping and wailing.” (4:3) This was in addition to their existing sense of oppression as exiles. Esther (Hadassah) was not only a descendant of captives, but also an orphan. She didn’t have any wealth or power, but we learn she is rich with beauty and wisdom (2:5-7). As the story plays out (spoilers if you haven’t read it), Haman gets hung on a gallows he had made for Mordecai (7:10). Still more, although the previous order of Haman could not be undone (it carried the seal of the signet ring), the king empowered Esther and Mordecai to issue a second decree, authorised again by the signet ring, that the Jews have “the right to assemble and protect themselves, to destroy, kill and annihilate any armed force of any nationality or province that might attack them and their women and children, and to plunder the property of their enemies.” (8:11). Haman’s orders were literally genocidal (“all the Jews” young/old, women/children), while Mordecai’s were restricted to the defensive destruction of armed attackers. When the day came for the previous genocidal orders of Haman to be carried out, the Jews assembled “to attack those seeking their destruction” (9:2). The enemies resisted and destroyed reached as high as 75,000, and it is repeated three times that “they did not lay their hands on the plunder.” (9:10, 15, 16) The would-be victims were empowered to defend themselves, and did not escalate matters and take the plunder that the edict had entitled them to. The victims had resisted oppression without becoming oppressors themselves.

Fast forward to WWII and Hitler. Hitler was motivated by a victim mentality. He and other Germans felt that the Treaty of Versailles was too harsh. With his own brand of so-called scientific reasoning, he felt that the Jews were a threat to the health, strength, and purity of human progress. Such was the horrific thinking that justified such terrible tragic brutality and violence. As for the Jewish people, there was no opportunity for counter violence – and no need for justifying it. Unlike the mass deliverance narrated in Exodus, not everyone was able to escape to neighbouring countries or survive the concentration camps (better called Death Camps). Unlike the stark triumphant reversal narrated in the book of Esther, there was no great empowering act of self-defense in 1945. The war simply ended one day and survivors were freed.

Revisiting Victimhood in the Present Moment

Again, both the IDF and Hamas feel victimised.
Let’s consider some of the ways each feel victimised.

Palestinians in general – and Hamas in particular – protest displacement going back decades to the 1947 UN Partition Plan. They see this as an ongoing act of oppression. They lament the imposition of walls that were built between families that separated people and communities. They lament the responses of Israel that they would claim are consistently disproportionate.

Israel, by contrast, feels the pain of long-standing displacement and diaspora, going back centuries. They feel hated by surrounding nations. They feel the pain of being judged for what they would call self-defense. They feel misrepresented and labelled as reckless when they claim they are doing everything possible to warn innocent people to clear out.

When Justifications aren’t Just…

I’m going to risk suggesting that the victim mentality has wrongly justified violence on both sides.
That’s not me sitting comfortably on the fence, that’s trying to be even-handed in critique.

Hamas cannot justify their literally genocidal intent. Whatever the realities of ongoing colonisation and oppression, that does not justify the actions of 7 October 2023, and the ongoing refusal to return all hostages. It does not justify the tactics of hiding under hospitals and using civilians as human shields.

The IDF cannot justify its ‘collateral damage’ of civilian casualties in Gaza. Whatever the legitimacy there may be to defending yourself against a group (Hamas) that wants to end your existence, and however fair it is to take action to achieve the return or rescue of hostages, this does not justify the mass bombing. Civilians are never going to be able to clear out faster than Hamas.

A Better Way…

Jesus spoke to a group of Jews who also identified as Victims. They were under the thumb of Roman occupation. They longed for a Messianic rescue. Some of them were ready to wield the sword. Some did. The Maccabean revolt decades before Jesus. The Simon bar Kokhba revolt a century after.

Jesus instead taught these victims to pray for those who persecute them. To strive for and pray for justice, but to do that with Mercy and Humility, in line with the prophet Micah. Jesus knew then and knows now what happens when “the things that make for peace” remain hidden from our eyes.

Let us Pray for Peace and Work for Peace. At all times and places.

the opposite of the serenity prayer

The beauty and poignance of the Serenity Prayer is evident, and known to many a 12-step addict.

God,
grant me the Serenity
to accept the things I cannot change
Courage
to change the things I can
and the Wisdom
to know the difference.

It is a sanity-inducing prayer.
But what about the insanity that it opposes?
That kind of insanity flows not from prayer…
but from self-focused, self-seeking thinking.
Something like…

Self,
keep me in the Chaos
that refuses to accept things I cannot change
Fear
that blocks my efforts to manage myself
and the Insanity
to keep judging others and justifying myself.

Nehemiah-nomics

Chapter 5 of Nehemiah gives a great picture of biblical justice.

The irony here is the context that the injustice develops.

Luxury in a context of hard-times

Cyrus, the pagan king anointed by God, has mercifully decreed that the Jews should return and rebuild Jerusalem. Artaxerxes, not able to bear seeing sadness in his presence, has sent the weeping Nehemiah back to rebuild.

It’s all hands on deck building the wall. Read chapter 4. The people “worked with all their heart” (4:6) and are making angeringly fast progress filling in gaps. Their neighbouring adversaries (forced to let them build) are threatening to attack and stop them. So the re-builders have to work with one hand and have a sword in the other. They roster on shifts of people working and watching.

As early as chapter 3, Nehemiah hints that the nobles are not so helpful. They “would not put their shoulders to the work” (3.5).

The Voice of the Poor

Now in chapter 5 we have three quotes from those facing hardship. This is quite remarkable. Nehemiah doesn’t just describe the challenges facing them in his own words, but in the actual voice of the poor.

One group talks about how their large numbers make their need for grain a matter of life and death
Another talks about having to mortgage their homes to get grain.
A third group talks about having to sell their children into slavery to pay the kings tax. They say “we are powerless, because our fields and vineyards belong to others.”

Economic Dominance

Nehemiah critiques the nobles for economically dominating their fellow Jews. Buying their lands and charging interest for the loans they made. The nobles didn’t have a word to say in their defense (5:8) This moment is a parallel of the Jubilee laws given at Sinai (Leviticus 25) to prepare the people to live justly in the land. Land was not to be sold permanently. It was to be seen as belonging to God. Nehemiah calls for the Jubilee reset. Give it back. The fields, vineyards, olive groves, and interest you gained.

Translating this for today…

It is a stunning picture of biblical justice and jubilee economics.

It’s important to say that it is not communism. It’s not everyone having the same. It’s not equality legislated to the max. But it’s clearly not everyone ‘free’ to do whatever they want. Be as successful as you can, make as much money as you can. Even if it causes your neighbour to starve and they end up facing the horrible decision of dying of starvation or selling their family into slavery.

No. This is neither unhindered free-market economics, nor big-government forced equality (which always seems to make room for a special powerful group who has a lot more). Neither Moses nor Nehemiah intended to control people so that nobody would ever be a bit more successful than another. What they both will not stand for, however, is gross inequity. Once you have a huge rich/poor gap, things get practically impossible for the poor, while the rich have to do practically nothing to keep their wealth.

Whatever we think about government legislation or political policy, the Church today should call one another to conduct ourselves in ways that do not allow the poor to be destitute and without a real choice.

the profound prayer of Jesus

Jesus was actually quite a wise student of human nature. When his disciples asked him to teach them to pray, he gave the best answer. His prayer includes everything we need. It’s theologically, practically, psychologically and poetically brilliant.

  • Worship: Our Father who art in heaven, hallowed be Your name.
    • This reminds me that all prayer and living must be done in the glad worshipful awareness that God is our Father, and that God is the ultimate reality over all creation.
  • Submission: Thy kingdom come, thy will be done, on earth as it is in heaven.
    • This reminds me that ultimately I have to submit to God’s plan and desire. God is the ground of all ethical/moral imagination. All notions of health, well-being and flourishing are only able to be conceived or pursued because of the sovereign permission and power of God.
  • Gratitude: Give us this day our daily bread…
    • This reminds me that God provides everything: a universe, a fertile planet with liquid water and friendly for complex life, grain and humans who know how to make flour, and ultimately the nourishment and simplicity of bread. It reminds me of the need to share bread with the needy. It reminds me that there is enough to go around. It reminds me that I can be secure in the provision of God.
  • Reconciliation: Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us.
    • This reminds me that my own experience of God’s forgiveness is linked with my own willingness to be forgiving. If I stay angry, resentful and self-pitiful toward others, I will hinder my capacity to engage fruitfully with the mercy of God that is continually offered to me and the people I may be angry with.
  • Righteousness: And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from the Evil One.
    • This reminds me that I am always progressing either towards sin or righteousness. I’m either going with the flow of the Evil One, or seeking the power and presence of the Holy One. If that sounds binary, it’s because it is. Some things are just that simple.
  • Mission: For thine is the kingdom, the power and the glory, forever and ever – Amen.
    • This reminds me to carry this prayerful unceasing awareness into each day. My life is offered to God’s mission. Every situation I may face is an opportunity to practice Worship, Submission, Gratitude, Reconciliation and Righteousness. Everywhere. Always. Till kingdom come.

The final observation is that each line instills a principle that enables the next.

Worshipful awareness of God’s ultimacy compels me to submit to his reign over all…
This enables me to see and appreciate his provision…
This security in God’s love is the foundation for giving up my anger and working at reconciliation…
And if I’m secure in God and being reconciled with others, I’m less likely to have a mind that feels angry, victimised, wronged, sore and therefore less tempted to engage in a range of soothing, self-justifying sins like gossip, vengeance, lust, greed, substance abuse, self-harm or other-harm.

Lord, you are the king of the universe. It’s all about you.
I worship you in all of my scientific ignorance and all my poetic babbling.
Your way is what we need. It’s what I need.

If we did what you want, we would know peace.
Literally everything is a gift from you…

From singularity to solar systems to sourdough
From creation to redemption.
I am safe in your loving provision and forgiveness.
Unclench my angry fists towards others who I feel wronged by…
And hush the frustrated self-talk that blocks the flow of your mercy to me, and through me to others.
Help me help myself to be a person of reconciliation, forgiveness and understanding.
Help me help myself to say no to the luxurious comforts of indulgent greed, lust and power.
Unlock the chains I bind myself in.
Train me to be of service to others in your mission of love for all people and all creation.
It is always all about You.
Amen.

fashionable help

In my arrogance…
I don’t want help that looks to simply like help…
I don’t want help that makes me look too desperate…
I wouldn’t want anyone to think I really needed help…
I’d rather be seen as someone who is a smug curator of the most desirable help.

In my arrogance…
I want fashionable help.

In my arrogance…
“I lift my eyes up.
Up to the mountains.
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from…”
Things that sound cool…
Things I can wear like fashion accessories…
Things like “12 step spirituality”
or “neuroscience”
or the scintillating book quotes I might drop…

What about people whose help is… God?
What about people who find it helpful to listen to Christian top-40 worship music?
What about people whose help is saying the serenity prayer?

Instead of arrogance…
intelligent help for intelligent people…
trendy help for trendy people…

What about simple help for simple people…

Lord make me humble.
Make me a servant.

the sneaky allure of selfishness

I’m a prayer guy, and I’m a fan of 12-step spirituality.

So one of the resources I use for prayer is the guidance offered in the AA Big Book for step 11.

It suggests some patterns of meditation and prayer “upon awakening”. Here’s the first bit of advice…

“On awakening let us think about the twenty-four hours ahead. We consider our plans for the day. Before we begin, we ask God to direct our thinking, especially asking that it be divorced from self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.”

AA Big Book, page 86

I am in awe of how practical this advice is. If I’m not directed by God, I will eventually (or immediately!) drift into spiritually unhelpful ways of thinking about my day. It mentions three huge categories of bad day-planning: “self-pity, dishonest or self-seeking motives.”

In my insecurity, I can lapse into the self-pity of imagining how certain situations may not go my way, or dreading the experience today of the effects of having been wronged yesterday.

In my self-protecting fear, I can drift into dishonesty, looking at the day ahead with a distorted lens that lies to myself by exaggerating the good that I think I might do, or minimising the mistakes I may make.

In my grandiosity (itself a product of insecurity), I can wade into the waters of imagining how impressively I might perform in this or that situation.

Later on in these couple of pages of advice, the AA big book has a strong suggestion around making our prayers that are oriented to being useful to others.

We ask especially for freedom from self-will, and are careful to make no request for ourselves only. We may ask for ourselves, however, if others will be helped. We are careful never to pray for our own selfish ends. Many of us have wasted a lot of time doing that and it doesn’t work. You can easily see why.

AA Big Book, page 87

I don’t think it is theologically wrong to pray for ourselves, of course. But it is not hard to see the wisdom of this advice. Our thinking about the day, and our ways of going about the day itself, are quickly distorted by self-focused motives. Heck, I can find myself drifting into worry, fear or self-protecting resentment even during a time of prayer itself!

The advice here is to always remember our priority of being useful to others. That is damned good advice.

surprising God speech

This morning I am up to 2 Chronicles 35 in my daily readings.

I was excited to read more about Josiah, who is becoming a bit of a favourite of mine. No king like him before or after him, says 2 Kings 23:25. The account of Josiah in 2 Kings is very brief in its narration of Josiah’s death. It simply says that Josiah went out to fight against the Egyptian king Necho, who “faced him and killed him.” It’s given as a very short footnote in the life of the great reformer.

The account in 2 Chronicles has a fair bit more to say about Josiah’s death. Despite all of Josiah’s inspiring life: the years of learning as a young king, his seeking after God, the purging Judah of idols and images, the repairing of temple, and the celebrating of a Passover like no other, we are given a blunt account of his stubborn end.

Necho came up to fight against Carchemish by the Euphrates. Josiah is determined to stop this, and moves into position. Pharaoh is off-put and sends a message to Josiah, effectively saying: “Hey, what are you doing? My fight is not with you, but with them.” And then we have a fascinating record of communication from this Pharaoh. This Egyptian brings God into it, saying, “God commanded me to make haste. Refrain from meddling with God, who is with me, lest He destroy you.”

That’s quite a statement. “I’m acting under the command of God. God is with me. If you resist me, you’re resisting God, and you’ll be destroyed.”

Immediately some of our intuitive sensibilities leap in here in confusion. “Oh sure, the Egyptian king may be claiming that God has sent him, but we know that God only speaks to and through the good people of Israel, like prophets, priests and kings. God doesn’t speak through Pharaohs…”

But then, the narrative continues and shatters those sensibilities: we are told that Josiah, unwilling to turn away, disguised himself and went to fight, and in so doing “did not heed the words of Necho from the mouth of God.”

What? This is not just Necho being used as a mouthpiece for God, but God’s mouth being used as a channel for… Necho’s words!?.

Here again we have an expectation-shattering narrative. God gets involved in the world in ways we don’t like, don’t approve of, and don’t expect. God not only gets involved with passionate prayerful reformers like Josiah, but also with warring Egyptian kings who are being resisted by the ‘good guys’.

As we learn much later in the biblical metanarrative, God is not only the God of the Jews, but of Gentiles also (Romans 3:29). God can speak through stars, donkeys and silence as well as prophets, preachers and holy writ. When it comes to God, we do have a definitive narrative to help us know when something is or isn’t from God, but we also do well not to overly absolutize or restrict our expectations.

Maybe today God is speaking through people and groups we don’t like, as well as ‘The Christians’.

God speaks in surprising ways. May I listen, hear and obey.

the idolatry of seeking bad help

In 2 Chronicles 28, amidst the familiar but irregular back-and-forth rhythm of ‘good king, bad king’ in this part of the Bible, we are introduced to King Ahaz. He did not do what is right.

Bad king.

One of the familiar refrains of this part of biblical history has to do with burning incense to, building altars to, or not removing the high places to foreign gods. The original readers or hearers of these stories would have known the practical detail of the idolatry that is summarised by such words. But we modern readers don’t.

Early in the chapter (28:2-4) we get a list of his idolatrous practices (the Baal images, the child sacrifice, the incence at the high places, hilltops and trees), but later (28:22-23) we are given a window into his idolatrous mindset. Here’s how the text puts it.

In his time of trouble King Ahaz became even more unfaithful to the Lord. He offered sacrifices to the gods of Damascus, who had defeated him; for he thought, “Since the gods of the kings of Aram have helped them, I will sacrifice to them so they will help me.”

Here is the implicit idolatrous ideology we are invited to consider: if you want help in a particular area, you sacrifice particular things to particular gods. If you have food insecurity or drought, you sacrifice grain to get more from the gods. If childbirth and reproduction isn’t going so well, you might sacrifice your child to get help with having more children.

By contrast, the faithful leaders and prophets understood that the Lord doesn’t require dead children, or even rams or bulls, to bless his people. They knew how inhumane and anti-life such practices and ideology were.

In our modern world, we don’t literally make these same kinds of sacrifices, but we still can fall into idolatrous thinking that leads to idolatrous living. We see other people who seem to be enjoying certain things, so we sacrifice to get in on the action. We might think: “Their holiday photos looked amazing. I’m going to work extra and save so we can go.” or “That newest smartphone model has amazing features, instead of using my money for other purposes, I’ll shell out for one.”

Those are just some easy examples. Idolatry can be much more subtle. Even church leaders can be tempted: “Their church services look amazing, let’s invest in all of their tech so we can have that too.”

Then and now, the contrast is grateful obedience to the Lord and not enslaving ourselves to a false god, even if the offer looks enticing. The things we really need, oxygen, grace, meaning, purpose, are free of charge and not in short supply.

one day at a time

The phrase “one day at a time” is simple and profound. It is a phrase from the world of 12-step recovery, but has a biblical background. Think new manna or new mercies every morning. Or Jesus’ teaching against worrying about tomorrow.

One way to think about what it does mean, is to think about what it doesn’t mean.

The opposite of living one day at a time is to live life under the psychological weight of many or all days. It may indeed be wise to recall the mistakes of the past one wants to avoid repeating. And it is generally accepted wisdom to have aims in life, and to plan for the future. There is a huge difference, however, between the firm wisdom of recalling past errors and making future plans, and the sure insanity of trying to psychologically manage one’s entire life span – or indeed all history – with the limited resources of one’s present daily experience.

It is too much.

And so, as with the alcoholic, we don’t trouble ourselves with fixing every problem that we have at once, and we don’t worry about what may happen tomorrow. We focus. We channel our energies onto the present day.

The alcoholic cannot, meaning they are powerless to, psychologically bear the weight of stopping drinking forever. It is too much to hold in mind their entire journey of recovery. It is enough to focus ‘just for today’. The alcoholic does not concern themselves with ensuring today that they will not drink tomorrow, next week and so on. They concern themselves with the required actions to further their recovery today. They will pray today. They will help another alcoholic today. They will go to a meeting or make a phone call today. They will seek to be kind and loving towards all today.

Like the alcoholic, we are not God that we can look down upon this little cosmic timeline and work out a timeless eternal solution for how to rectify all the problems therein. No, we are at best partners of God, given just enough time, strength and capacity to affect what we can affect today.

This phrase dovetails well with the Serenity Prayer.

God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change.
Like the past and the future…
Courage to change the things I can
Like today and only today…
And the wisdom to know the difference.
Like remembering to live one day at a time…